Final Moments

I know, I know...it's not the normal title, but I have to make a blog post.

I just finished writing chapter 42 of "40 Days" and honestly, it was the toughest thing I have ever written IN. MY. LIFE.

The emotion that just runs off of the screen during the Carbon Freezing is so difficult to capture in words, because there's almost no way to describe it. Those moments on Bespin are, honestly, some of my favorite moments of ANY movie in the world, because they are so powerful, even though so few words are spoken.

And honestly, writing it from the perspective of the people witnessing it was completely different. It's one thing to watch it, but to experience it is...just...eye opening. When writing from such a perspective such as I have been, you feel not only Leia's emotions, but Han's as well, and there are moments where the expressions and the glances and the meanings behind everything just start to fill you head. It's really kind of hard to describe.

But I really do suggest, when you read my fic or whenever, that you really look into this scene closely. I honestly have never watched it like I did tonight while I was writing. I never looked that deep into the feelings. I didn't really see the power in the kiss before he's pulled away, or the reflections in their eyes or Chewie's continuing cries.

You see, the reason this scene is SO powerful in the movie, is because of what I said before. Really, in the climax of the moment, only five words are spoken. "I love you" and "I know," and yet, there are a million words that are said in-between those. Words unspoken, words that will never be mentioned. Hopes and fears and dreams and losses and terror and love.

So, in case you guys haven't noticed, not ONCE do they say "I love you" to each other completely to the others face. Yes, a few chapters back Han whispered it to her, and Han said it to Chewie and there was the upset about that, but it was never muttered, especially from Leia. They've come close, but I have always felt that it leads up to this moment. If Leia had said "ILY" to Han before this, I don't think it would mean as much, and vice versa. So just keep that in mind as you read the story.

I just had to blog about this because I really did experience something different. Also, when you get to the point of Han's torture, please PLEASE watch the movie and listen to his screaming. I know, it sounds weird...but do it. Because I don't think it's as powerful without it. Yes, I know, I should be able to bring that affect through words, and I've tried, but there are some moments that you can't say in words. Sounds, or ideas or thoughts or pictures where words just don't compare. And I don't care if you're the best writer in the world. Ok, maybe if you're the best writer in the world...but I'm not, so there. LOL.

And finally, I would like to bring some sad news to all of you. I am, officially, finishing "40 Days"...as far as the writing portion goes. I know I need to finish it now, while the emotions are still in my mind, and I have just a very short chapter left to go anyway, so what's the deal? Lol. But I am now...as I said...officially...writing the last words of the story. These are, in all reality, the final moments of "40 Days."